A new year, new mommy, new me!!!!!

In my whole lifetime i never would have thought that i would birth a child at 22 yrs old. There was a point in my life where i was soo anti-kids, where motherhood was out of the question even when i got older. But on November 14th, 2008 I birthed one of the sweetest human beings in the world! My son Jaylen who is now my motivation to accomplish a whole lot more in life, who is now my rock and keeps me grounded... at only 2 weeks from posting this blog he has changed and matured me. I've done and said things that i prolly wouldnt have said or done if he wasent in this world. u talk about unspeakable joy? i cant even express the way i feel rt now! ive done soo much in my young and immature life that i could never even think about doin in my mature and motherhood life! i cherish him in ever way imaginable! goin on my ninth month ive gotten sooo anxious bc at the time me and my homegirl was pregnant at the same time, her baby was due Oct 21 and Jay was due nov 14 after her son came out there was only a few more weeks til jay came out and i was sooo anxious and ready for him to come out! i actually got a lil jealous cause i really really reallly wanted him here! nov 13th came and i actually had no contractions the whole day, which worried me. but in the early mornings of nov 14 my son was ready to come out and share the wonders of his beauty wit the world!! i couldnt have been more amp'd at that particular moment! well... until my contractions hit...lol...i went thru 6 hrs of labor and only about 5 or 6 pushes. he was here at 9:42am that morning weighting at only 7lbs 15oz and was 19inches! i couldnt believe it at this point! and now when i look at him i really cant believe that he came out of me! that this lil angel came out of me and needs only me to go to sleep and eat and chage his diaper! that this lil guy only depends on me to makehis tummy from stop hurting and to make him laugh and feel happy!!! i juss love the fact that i use to be sooo anti-kids and now im a mom and he loves everything i do for him