Hardest thing i've ever had to do...

soo today i had to do tha hardest thing:

today i had to give my sons father an altimatum either he wants to be apart or he doesnt

am i wrong? did i over step my boundries as a parent?
honestly i was thinkin of the well being of my child. i personally had to endure pain of my father jumping in and out of my life. so why would i want my own seed to go thru the same??
i love jays father with all my heart but when u find someone else that will cherish u and love u for u no matter how much weight u gain then its kinda hard to go back and love someone that really didnt love u in the first place.
i stayed up when he needed to chat. then when im pregnant wit his son then hes no where to found. my emotions are alll screwed up. my life without my baby is pretty much no life at all.

i gave away my heart to a guy that sold me false hopes and dreams. who ripped my heart out and threw it away. i stayed by him thru majority of all his ish, along side him when he was still treatin me like shit. my heart really wanted to leave but my feet wouldnt budge.

so overall its my fault??

i juss couldnt resist him and now im in a delima where i have to deal with him for a lifetime!
do you think it will change for me??
do u think i could ever love again??
my feelings are soo hurt that my tears are even dried up i really cant cry anymore.

going thru with my pregnancy was the best choice i could have ever made.
ugh!
soo many frustrations i need a damn cigerette

tiff,