when I cant get enough.

Ugh, why does love have to hurt so bad?
i think this is the first time in my life where im caught in between to loves and i cant decide where i wanna go.

i know in my last blog i said that u could only love one person but i mean, one i really loved b4 i even met my sons father. and there is my sons father.

the pros and cons about both guys is that with O he has his career set, money to make it, loves me a lot, but then the cons of him is that he loves me to much, where im his everything andd juss like sheree from real housewives of ATL says "i dont want to be anyones everything." and thats sooo tru! my life revolves around my son soo if i dont show him an ounce of lovin or affection then that can get in the way. he loves me soo much hes gonna move back to california and i dont know quite yet if im ready for that. BUT I DO LOVE HIM A WHOLE LOT. and everything that i have told him b4 this blog i meant every word.

the pro about D is that, hes very ambitious, has alot of goals, funny and very entertaing. loves his son, but i dont know about me. he says he does but then again ppl will say anything to get into the sack wit u right? i love this man more than my heart can keep pumpin blood. and that bad con is that he juss really doesnt see it. IM NOT HIS EVERYTHING. he told me that other night that he rather fucks wit me b4 anyone and im like why fucks wit anyone at all then? y fucks wit me and go straight to that other broad? especially when u know im weak and i'll give it to u whenever u need it. i know that down grading myself but im juss keeping it real with myself. i get so upset with him and im strong enough to cut him out of my life for like a few days maybe a week or two but then hes rt back calling me again and makin me laugh. he doesnt have his priorites straight but he needs to know that a family for our son is wats really needed. and that im ready and willing to be there for him when he needs it. ugh!

WHEN I CANT GET ENOUGH.

what are the rules of love? why do we even have to have any?? who made them up? cause who evver it was i want to sit and talk to them and discuss why i cant love both y i cant be with both.
when my heart stops beating i often times wonder which guy will speak great things about me?!

ugh!

tiff,